To The Girl Who Thinks She Is Too Broken

To the girl reading this, God sees you, God wants to help you, and God loves you SO MUCH there’s nothing you can do about it. 

Most of my life, I got used to smiling on the outside and battling deep in my heart and mind. I started believing that if I wasn’t strong for everyone else, I was a burden. And this mindset ruined me. It opened the door for so many lies to destroy my mind. Things like, “God doesn’t care about your pain, your struggles are too much for God to handle.” The enemy convinced me those all were true but the truth is, the devils a liar.

Because these lies were so drilled into my head, I bottled everything up, leaving me feeling numb and questioning if I wanted to keep going. In a particular season of my life (that I consider my lowest) I was struggling with heavy grief that led me to have these dark thoughts that I couldn’t control. Instead of bringing those to God, I tried to hide it. I believed that my thoughts were too dark, overwhelming, and heavy, even for God. 

It was about 3-4 months going through all this until I came into this realization, that I had no hope in me but I knew deep in my heart, I would find hope in Him. Dealing with that grief and numbness made it extremely hard to read my Word. But thankfully, I got to a point where there was such a hunger in me for hope, I opened up my Bible and flipped to 1 Peter. I’ve never read that book at that point but reading it just felt right. As I continued reading, it felt that the Lord was ACTIVELY speaking to me. In that moment, so much peace, love and joy overflowed me. I read and read and soon came across 1 Peter 5:10.

“In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation.”

The moment I read this and started leaning on the Lord in my time of brokenness. I realized, only God can give me the strength and power to overcome my struggles and that leaning on my own strength made me incredibly weaker. There was such a shift in my heart to the point where I couldn’t do nothing but just adore Jesus for who He is and just thank Him for assuring my hope would be restored. 

But ultimately, it revealed to me that when our eyes are on the Lord no matter what we’re facing or struggling with, those lies that the enemy put in our head get quiet. And God begins to remind you the truth! That we are loved, chosen, and hold a purpose even in the middle of our pain. The lies told us that we have no hope but the Lord reminds us that hope was never gone. This is the truth, and I encourage you to be rooted in it, so that no lie can move you. 

One lie that got quiet was that I needed to come to the Lord looking put together and strong. But God doesn’t want us to fake our feelings, He invites us to bring our feelings to Him. Jesus says, “Come to me all who are broken and heavy laden and I will give you rest.” Notice He didn’t say come to me when you have it all figured out. Jesus wants to give you the rest you’ve been longing for, we just have to be willing to come to Him honestly and lay down the weight we’ve been carrying. 

In our walk with the Lord, we are going to encounter seasons in our lives that will be draining and leaving us feeling defeated. But the beautiful thing about Jesus is that when we lean on Him, He gives us the strength to keep on going and equips us with everything we need as well as send us resources to conquer the enemy’s sick lies.

So for the girl that’s overwhelmed with scary thoughts, exhausted with carrying heaviness, or feeling empty, God wants to you to come to Him as you are so that He can fulfill you with His empowering Holy Spirit. The things you are struggling with aren’t too much for the Lord, and they’ll never be. We serve an incredibly loving God and he will restore, support, and strengthen you in Jesus name.